Leap of Faith

For the past year I have had a nagging voice telling me that I should consider homeschooling Leah but I had always believed strongly that homeschooling was not for me and I would never be very good at it. I had dismissed the idea as quickly as it came. Unfortunately the idea had not dismissed me. Last summer I had this horrible sensation in my stomache that was urging me to consider it more fully. Still I was not ready to be one of `those` parents. So I told myself that I would put her in school in the fall and if things went well then my concerns would be put to rest. Well, September was...how shall I say...dreadful! I knew homeschooling was the answer to my prayer but I was not yet ready to accept it. I was terrified and not in the least bit prepared to take on that responsibility. I just kept telling myself that things had to get better. So I started volunteering in the school and helping out wherever I could but nothing seemed to be working. By December we were at our wits end and I knew something had to be done. Patrick and I made a promise that if Leah was at peace over the holidays and there was happiness in her eyes again, I would pull her out of school in the New Year. That is exactly what happened so I pulled her. I was terrified but it is without a doubt the BEST decision that we have ever made for our family. Leah is so happy and doing so well. Infact I am even having fun! As it turns out I am one of those parents, who knew. I guess the Lord really did know what this little family needed He was just waiting for me to follow his promptings. Next time I won`t wait so long!